My name is Michelle and I am junk food addict.
Back in June once Megan was able to walk again, we started treating ourselves with food. Then I got lost in emotions of, now what? Now I have half of my autobiography written and I have a job and income stability again. The past has come knocking on my door and I am doing a great job of drawing lines in the sand and saying no to people who drain me of positive energy. I am rebuilding my life successfully but there is a monster at my door!
Junk Food addiction is controlling my world, it has been for months. I feel it in my clothes; I feel it walking up the stairs, I see it in my skin and hair. I know it is the worst thing possible for my life and for my daughter. I am overly tired due to the lack of quality in my diet. Getting home at 7pm at night it’s far too easy to stop at the drive through and pick up the ready made junk food.
Junk food is anything processed. All of that processed food has the nasty effect of spiking my blood sugar levels short term. The subsequent drop of those blood sugar levels causes my body to scream for more junk food. It is a vicious cycle and one that I understand totally. I have been guiding people to understand this for a year. Now I face the music and claim my problem. This is an addiction like any other, once you fall off the wagon it’s easy to get lost in the enjoyment of getting away with it.
My personal coach Brandon will be so disappointed in me; I have made a point of not talking about food for months. I skirt the discussions about exercise. Maybe if I don’t talk about it, then it isn’t really a problem. Of course it’s a problem. To be fair I have been pretty busy accomplishing other goals but this one has to become priority one again before my daughter gets sick again and before I end up in the hospital fighting my own health battles.
So how do I begin, how do I get away from this before something terrible happens. I know this is step 1. Admitting you have a problem is always step 1. Next step will be working with Brandon, to get me back on track on food and exercise. Accountability to Brandon and to my blog readers will keep me on track as I fight to regain control.